Scary Faith...

Faith is scary. That's it. Point Blank. Maybe not so much for everyone, but for the compulsive, controlling, uber-plan-everything psycho that I am, it is scary. I don't know why it scares me so much. God has proven his faithfulness more times than he should have. He has gone above and beyond every need. I have nothing to be dissatisfied about. However, as we sit here contemplating classes over the summer and next fall and really for the foreseeable future I am getting worked up. I can feel that familiar ball of stress forming in the pit of my stomach. How are we going to pay for classes? We thought he was going to get to take his summer classes free and transfer in the credit, but it turns out that it is not quite that simple. Southern Methodist University (where he works and can take some classes for free) is making him jump through hoops to take classes through the theology department. He has to submit an application with several essays, several letters of reccomendation, a $50 fee, and official transcripts from BOTH his current graduate program and his undergraduate program (in Massachusetts). All of this can be done, but wait, lets throw another wrench into the mix, it all has to be done by one week from today! Ahhh...I have to keep reminding myself that none of this is a problem for God and that he is able overcome infinitely more than we can ever comprehend. But it is hard. My mind keeps wandering: If he can't take classes at SMU, can he take them at SWBTS? Will the classes still be open for enrollment? How will we afford an extra $1000 to pay for tuition plus extra for books and such? And along those lines, how will we afford classes in the fall? Will we be able to pay for them monthly? If we can't will he have to take fewer classes? Then how long will it take to graduate? I could go on and on and on and on..... The fact of the matter is: Last Spring, Mike was unemployed for about two and a half months. We (somehow) survived on little more than $1000 a month. It barely covered rent and our car payment. We were faithful through all of that in God's call on our lives to have Mike continue his degree program. He finished the semester and was offered a job the very next day. He is currently at that job now. I have to believe that if we continue to be faithful to Him and concentrate on His call on our lives that he is able to provide for us in ways we are unable to envision right now. Please pray for us as we try to submit to His authority in our lives and focus on completing Mike's schooling. Pray that we will have Faith in Him and the Peace that follows as we hand our burdens over to the Lord. Pray that God will provide a way for us to afford his tuition and fees and books. I know that his is able.